Caveman-to-be

Ever reached a point where everything seems so bleak & pointless to do? Here I am now, wondering like a lifeless soul. Would it ever end? or would my life suddenly turn around and be lively and interesting once again? I wish there is an END or RESET button..I don't think nothing is worse than feeling apathy for everything that's happening lately especially in the department of relationship and friendship..What is more to life? Is it the only thing that matters is $$? I feel like I just want to live in a cave with electricity, clean water supply and aircond alone...Anyway this blog is not inspired by anything but the feeling of ultimate weariness... I want to be alone, leave me alone people... Stop searching because you will never find anything... Bye...

Life is an adventure of bitter sweet memories

I guess in life, the reason why we would still wana live on when everything seems so gloomy and hopeless..it is because we are constantly working on something or chasing goals to make life better, or at least we hope that it will somehow improve the quality of our lives...We are always looking forward to something better to happen!

I've learnt a great deal of lessons in the year of 2011...It is a year filled with ups and downs..
money dont come easy, if it does it goes easy too...
it sure doesnt...just like people or things in life doesnt come easy..u have to appreciate and never take it for granted for it to work...

Especially people in your life..your loved ones, real friends and family never abandon them no matter what because without them you have nobody to share your life with or to care for or being cared for...Going through this ordeal, I realized that it has unveiled quite a good number of real friends. "Hmmm, after all I do have some real friends that I have overlooked and haven't been keeping in touch"...Reminds me that, the best and worst things in life are shared ;)

Love is real, love is only key to a great fulfilling life...Love what you do, love your spouse, love your enemies, love your parents, love your friends, love your brothers and love your sisters...Don't let selfishness, hatred or jealousy fill your heart because it will take you down faster than you think...
"There's no undo button in life...but there are love and forgiveness buttons...they are above everything. . ."
Love is what makes you such a beautiful and worthy person, Love is what makes the world look so beautiful, Love is what makes the other person flawless, Love built the tallest towers standing on the face of Earth and it made the longest bridge for us to cross from one continent to another, Love is what turns the toughest looking man into a girl...

Good things in life happen so that you can learn how to appreciate and love them and as for the bad things it happen because you stop seeing the good things in life or you have failed to appreciate them anymore...

When all bad goes bitter, the only thing we can do is probably just sit back and enjoy the ride of pain, tears, grief and sadness and hope that the ride will be over soon, that we would wake up realizing that it's all a nightmare.
One day, when you look back only the sweet and happy memories that once filled your life would be real because as the moment you reminisce, they are the things that would only stand out and matter to your life...

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts." -Albert Einstein

In search for an identity, role and purpose

It has been a long time since my last entry on my blog.

Everyone has got a purpose on this Earth. A tailor who has the skills to cut and design clothes to fit personal preference, a musician who hones her musical and fingering techniques since a young age to be able to perform all those small little detailed expressions and dynamics that bring notes to live, or doctor who has the skill, knowledge and intellect to perform a surgery while attending to many complications of a human body.

Whatever you may want to call it a job, a skill or an area of expertise that you can contribute to the society and make a living out of it makes life meaningful and worthy to live. It makes you feel worthy and important as a person to your family, friends and society.

Does what I do justify who I am? Yes, I believe so in many ways. After years of trials and errors into different fields toward the cause to find who I am, hoping that I could finally find something that I feel I belong to and love to do. It would be my goal that one day, the I'd be able to earn a lot of money(who doesn't?) and at the same time doing something that I proudly and passionately recognize. There are times in which I feel lost and wondering aimlessly or doubt, and this moment is one of those times. Am I able to think of myself as an opportunist or am I just simply someone who grabs desperately any chances I can get.

People proudly group themselves as businessman, musician, accountant, engineer, consultant and etc. Everyone is constantly looking for some sort of social identity to belong to, to feel safe and a sense of purpose. Trapped with inferiority complex constantly seeking for ways to feel more superior. Social groups that sound extravagant but often vague and humbler to what the person is really doing or how one is performing.

So the question is am I able to group myself like that? If yes, what would it be? A consultant? An entrepreneur wannabe/investor? Most of the time, I just don't feel I'm worthy of the title. One day, I know I will be proudly calling myself something...For now...

Truly mine,
Identity Crisis

Variance in life...

There are 6.8 billions people in this world and each one of us are different. We look different, walk different, think different. Imagine with these differences many people would be sitting the chair u're sitting now or occupy the same job u're doing now. Without differences the world would be a boring place- it's like going to a restaurant with only one dish in the menu, going to a boutique with an array of exactly the same cloth, color, size and style for sale...
The point is- believing in your own ways is good but expecting others to follow your ways is selfish and similar to shoving your shoes into their mouth and expecting them to be like you...
Being confident in your own decision has a fine line compared to feeling superior and arrogant over your actions and thoughts. Treasure differences and respect it. After all, if you would love people to listen to your ideas so much, don't you think others would want the same?

Parenting…

"I feel that my parents are dictators." (Do they even care to ask?)
"You owe your parents, and you have no freedom, you should do whatever they say." (being fillial and obedient does not mean being a slave!)
"Parents know what is best for you." (ya as if they do, they don't even bother to ask what you like or prefer or what u're doing outside in college or work)

If u think all the above are what u think your parents are...then...
Parents should be bounded by legal law to attend parenting courses before conceiving a child...

P.S. : I got this idea from one of my lecturer’s facebook wall shoutout xD…

Pls give your comments Agree/Neutral/Disagree.

Mind going astray…

21 Jan 2010, 9am- Psychology II exam is tomorro morning but it seems difficult for me to concentrate my mind to study. I really love spending time with her, I’ve never felt such happiness and bond with someone since years ago. I didn’t know since when she can affect me like this, seeing her like this made me feel sad and heart-wrenching.

You’re not alone – Michael Jackson (I like this song very much)

It reminded me of myself when I used to browse thru those photos as they are what’s left after all that have been lost~ memories..Yes photos donot speak but they pull back those memories which we have already dumped deep inside of our unconscious mind not wanting to think about it anymore..Time passed, memories faded, things changed, reality accepted but photos remain the same it never grows old. That is why photographs sometimes can be kind and yet cruel.

I guess it is only this much I can only do as a friend…<3

"Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory." (Albert Schweitzer)

Seriously..this is FUNNY!! ~*

HAHAHA!!